Why Do We Keeping Giving When We’re Empty?
Mar 27, 2019
As a blogger for the past few years, many of the posts I’ve written were from a position of authority. I’ve been writing from a stance of personal experience, events I’ve lived through and…just my life.
But with this blog I wanted to do something completely different and pose a question to my readers. You see, this is one blog topic that I couldn’t quite wrap my mind around nor find the answers to. Y’all know I like to keep it all the way real and honestly, over the past few weeks I’ve been in the slumps, just not feeling myself. You know that bummed out, exhausted for no reason, self destructive overthinking feeling? Yes, that! I woke up each day, tried to tackle the day’s to-do list, attended my meetings as scheduled, kept up with my online brand and…I smiled. They were fake smiles, but smiles nonetheless. For some reason I had this desire, actually it felt more like an obligation, to continue giving of myself in ways that I have become accustomed to and ways in which people have come to expect of me; despite how I was really feeling inside.
I felt this need to craft an inspirational blog or newsletter every week, essentially giving my readers something I couldn’t muster up the strength to give myself; motivation and peace of mind. I wanted to share more blogging and branding tips, answer all of the emails and direct messages from people seeking my advice or wanting help with something. I felt compelled and pressured to live up to my commitment to attend all “fifty-‘leven” events and outings I RSVP’d to and honestly, I just couldn’t. I didn’t want to. I felt empty.
I know I’m not the only one who gets this feeling from time to time. You know, that feeling where nothing moves you anymore, where your thoughts are so heavy they add to the count on the scale; where your mind racing spirals into headaches and sleepless nights. So yeah, I promised this blog would be different and it is, so I’ll shut up now and simply ask the question;
I haven’t figured out why I do, or feel the need to so I really want to know your answers to this question. Let’s chat in the comments below. P.S. This is a safe, judgement-free zone…so feel free to pour your heart out! <3